Why me? That’s the first question that I asked when I was discerned to write this article for the Covenant News. I was really surprised and hesitant. For the past 15 years, I always refused invitations from every BLD relative and friend to join this community. I was always afraid to speak up, pray in front of other people, or open up about myself. I knew that I would need to share about deep, personal things from my life experiences. I felt like I was the worst speaker and writer in our ME class. So, why me?
“For we are his handiwork, created in Christ Jesus for the good works that God has prepared in advance, that we should live in them.” (Ephesians 2:10). A part of me told me that God chose me for a reason. This part of me did not exist in the past when I was spiritually dormant. However, the Encounters, LSS's, teachings, and worships that the community offers have revitalized my spirit. They allowed me to see Jesus' light; and gradually, I started thinking more positively about myself. Through my renewed faith, I now believe that He chose me, not for who I am or what I am able to do, but rather for what I would become under His direction and power.
During the prayer healing workshop, I expressed how much I wanted to serve Him despite how incapable I felt. I had focused on what I did not have instead of on what I already have. God created my flaws so that I could testify to growing and maturing through Christ’s power. Now, I realize that each of us is unique and important. Each of us is needed in our church, in our community, and in this world to do good works and to spread the good news. We have worth because of what God has done for us and in us.
Now, whenever I ask myself, “Why me?” the answer is clear: my imperfections are all part of God’s plan for me to reach other people who may also doubt their own capabilities. When the Lord calls us, we must respond to Him, and we should not think we have nothing to offer. Even before He created us, He knew what we could do. The Lord takes what we can offer and enables us to accomplish great things for Him.
During the prayer healing workshop, I expressed how much I wanted to serve Him despite how incapable I felt. I had focused on what I did not have instead of on what I already have. God created my flaws so that I could testify to growing and maturing through Christ’s power. Now, I realize that each of us is unique and important. Each of us is needed in our church, in our community, and in this world to do good works and to spread the good news. We have worth because of what God has done for us and in us.
Now, whenever I ask myself, “Why me?” the answer is clear: my imperfections are all part of God’s plan for me to reach other people who may also doubt their own capabilities. When the Lord calls us, we must respond to Him, and we should not think we have nothing to offer. Even before He created us, He knew what we could do. The Lord takes what we can offer and enables us to accomplish great things for Him.